I’m in a funk. Training funk. There are lots of things going on in my life right now, many very satisfying, exciting, some stressful, but overall things are great.
But I’m in a funk. Training has become a bit of a chore. I enjoy racing, and maybe because I’m not involved in that right now, it makes the disconnect feel even wider. I feel I have so much to do, that fitting a workout in or subsequently missing it is adding a layer of stress. With so much focus on improving and results (self imposed) I’ve lost the enjoyment of just going for a run. Or just going for a ride. When I do get the workout in, I feel great, but often, I’m not even motivated to get out there. Partially because workouts are hard.
Like now. I’ve mostly finished up my work for the day, so I should get up and go. But I’m not feeling it. I’m already not feeling my 3 hr ride planned for tomorrow.
Things need to change. Maybe I need a break – but I fear I won’t come back. Or, I will lose so much of what I’ve worked for that I will be further stressed and frustrated.
I guess I’ll go run.
UPDATE (5/14/11): I ran about an hour. Without a plan. Some fast miles (6:25) Some slow miles (8:09). And various speeds in between. I think I figured some things out.
Out of the funk yet? You looked good this weekend.